Sunday, May 14, 2017

A Moment to Write

I write really awesome blog posts in the shower... in my head.  I don't know how many times I have sat down to write and then can't think of anything to say, or how to say the things that I want to say in the right way.  In all honesty, it is often fear of what others might think of what I write that keeps me from writing at all. 

But I decided that as a little mothers day gift to myself I was going to write a blog post, just for my enjoyment of writing it.  Because I do love writing this blog, bad grammar and all.  My time is a bit more limited now, but I want to keep this little blog up. 

Recently, I have felt very self conscious of myself, my personality, my looks, and my actions on social media for a few months now.  I know... me, me, me.  I really need to just stop thinking about myself.  I have a strong desire for people to like me.  I never want to offend anyone or hurt their feelings.  I am very sensitive to how others perceive me.  I want to be liked and loved by those around me.  But on the other hand I want to have my own opinions, styles, and beliefs.  It is balancing game that we all have to play.  We ALL want to be liked and accepted, I just feel like some of us care a little bit more then others.  I need to work on not caring so much since all that worrying doesn't get me anywhere. 

So there is a little back ground of where I am coming from the last few months.    I am scared of what people think of me, but I also love being active on social media and blogging.  It is a balance that I don't always handle very well and should do better at.  My solution for these problems is usually less time on social media (working on that) and more time in the scriptures and with my family.  Thankfully my kids love me pretty much everyday of the week.  Unless I take the milk away from Declin and then even he doesn't like me.  ;)  


But moving on with the "fun for me" blog post... here are a few of the things that I have been thinking about as I go about my days as a mom.  Having little projects or dreams tucked in my brain helps me stay sane through the very monotonous tasks like laundry and cleaning.

Dressing your Truth/ Energy profiling.  This is the system that a woman named Carrol Tuttle developed that says every person is 1 of 4 different energy types/personalities.  There is a type 1,2,3, and 4.  I am a type one.  In its most basic form-  I deal with my world socially.  I have been thinking about this a lot lately and how my personality works and relates with others.  Also I have been thinking about my kids personalities.  As far as we can tell all four of our kids are each different energy type.  Which makes parenting them interesting and I have been thinking about how it all relates to everything in life.  From school, to friends, to disciplining each of them.  I really need to read her parenting book the Child Whisperer I just haven't taken the time to get it yet.  McKay read it though a few months ago and really liked it. 


Summer routine.  I am itching to step up our daily summer routine.  I hope to do some fun educational activities this summer.  I wont lie I kinda research homeschooling a lot.  Not that I plan to actually do homeschooling (I am probably too chicken) but I just love teaching my kids.  I am fascinated by all the different homeschooling methods out there that people use.  So I am just over here experimenting with my kids and summertime is the perfect time to try a few fun ideas out.  books with crafts, lots of sensory play, read alouds, and lots of counting.  No more kindergarten drop off/ and pick up for a few months.  It will be lovely! 

Summer clothes.  You guys know me and know that I can't go very long without talking about kids clothes.  So a few months ago I realized that Adalyn desperately needed some new summer clothes.  In the past clothes shopping with her has been a bit tricky since her style and my style haven't always matched up.  She wanted to live in leggings and comfy t-shirts all day and I wanted her in little coordinating outfits.  Even if they weren't so comfortable.  I feel like I have wasted so much money in the past buying her clothes in hopes that she will wear them and then in the end she will only wear 1/2 of the clothes in her drawer and the rest goes untouched.  So I was getting nervous about where and how we were going to find affordable, cute, play clothes.  That she would actually wear.  Thankfully I ran across this fun website Primary.com.  Their clothes are just basic bright colored shirts, dresses, shorts, sweaters, and pants.  They are so soft and fun for summer.  I found primary.com after reading this kids capsule wardrobe blog post.  So I let Adalyn pick a few color combos and now she can mix and match her little outfits all on her own.  Now the boys are getting excited for when they need new clothes so they can choose the colors that they want.
 

Summer travel plans.  This summer is ending up to be a calm summer without too many big plans.  After our summer of weddings last year a calm summer is looking pretty nice.  We just got back from a get-away to Las Vegas a week ago and then  we have some weekend trips to Utah and a family reunion in St. George.  Other then that we are going to make plans as we go and see what we end up doing this summer.  Hopefully a bit more work on the basement will be fit in too.

How to survive 4 kids.  Still challenged by having 4 kids daily.  They keep us on our toes and are busy busy!  My sanity saver is our yard.  They live outside when they can and have so much fun together.  I don't even know what to write here.  I... am... tired...  Except they get older eventually!  Haha!  Truly love the things that I have learned from being a mom.  I feel like I have developed myself in ways that have really helped me be a better person.  I also feel like I may not really remember the details from these years.  It will all just be a blur in my brain since life has happened so fast in the last 5 years.  Which makes me kind of sad because there are some really cute moments mixed up in the craziness.  Like will I ever even remember the way Declin says his polite hello and good morning when he wakes up.  Or the way he begs for milk in the evenings which really just means "please put me in bed now! I am so tired".


McKay.  he is so awesome.  He honestly needs an award or something.  He is the most wonderful blessing in my life.  He never complains about anything.  He wants to be there every step of the way in this parenting journey.  He loves to be with me and do whatever I am doing.  Most of my projects get done these days because of him.  He is silly and forgetful sometimes, but I am so grateful that he wakes up and worries about me and the kids every single day.  He is just wonderful and needs his moment on this blog.  :)

Reading the classics.  About a year ago I posted on Facebook about wanting to read more of the classic novels out there.  Several people gave me book suggestions and ever since then I have been slowly (so slowly) making my way through those books.  Currently I am reading The Count of Monte Cristo.  I could be on this one for a while.  Haha!  But I have loved reading!

Being patient.  I have a few dreams that I long for.  Things that I wish for and hope for, that just aren't happening at the time that I want them to happen.  I know the lord's timing is much better then mine and I trust in that timing.  So for now I just pray for patience and understanding.  We come from an instant gratification generation.  Pretty much we can have anything we want the moment we want it.  But there is a lot to be learned while waiting. So I will wait and try to do it happily. 

Hope all you ladies had a wonderful mothers day!  Thank you for all of your sweet examples to me!! My day wasn't perfect, I was sick all last night (darn Mastitis and spring cold) but I was happy to have a little nap and spend time with family.  McKay made me breakfast food for dinner and brownie chocolate cake.  yum!   



 






 

 

     

  

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